I've been struggling a lot with feeling like I am going to "jinx" myself by doing certain things. Does anyone else ever feel this way? I'm not normally a superstitious person, but there are a few things that I am either doing or avoiding for fear that doing the opposite will cause something terrible to happen (e.g., I'll lose this baby). For example, I have a necklace that I got after we lost L that I now refuse not to wear. I've somehow convinced myself that if I don't wear it one day, that will be it! I know this is absurd, but sometimes the feeling that something seemingly unrelated could cause us to lose the baby is just overwhelming. It doesn't always go with what I am wearing, so I've been trying to finagle a way to wear it each day but have it look less conspicuous.
So... am I just crazy? Maybe I don't really want to hear your answer to that question.