We went for a 6-week ultrasound today. We could see a gestational sac but no yolk sac or fetal pole or heartbeat. Either my timing is off (unlikely) in terms of date count or I am going to have a miscarriage. I'm sure it is the latter -- I'm pretty positive on ovulation date and I know that what we saw today is not good news. I know the u/s tech very well and she was very sweet about it and reminded me that 33% of pregnancies end in miscarriage and that what this likely means is that something is/was wrong.
I am crushed. This is not how I felt when we lost Q, of course. But I'd be lying if I hadn't already been thinking about this baby and what he/she would be like, how different our lives would be come November, etc. Even though I told myself not to, I'd been making plans.
Don't I know better by know?
Everything does feel different with B at home. I snuggled her extra long this morning before the appointment and I'm going to head home early to see her tonight. I know how lucky we are to have her and how much joy she brings to us.
Nevertheless, I'm quite sad.
We'll do a repeat ultrasound next Monday unless I start bleeding between now and then and decide next steps then.