We did get good news yesterday that is helping to quell my anxiety. I had a growth ultrasound and baby's head is measuring right on! She's overall measuring one day shy of her due date and everything looks great. Susie (u/s tech) and I spent some time just watching her move around, suck her thumb, etc. and it was just so reassuring (as are her kicks). I breathed a sigh of relief that her growth caught up and, in general, to be at this point without back or leg pain or signs of clotting.
I'm (obviously) still worried about things taking a turn for the worse without me knowing, but I left my appointment with the most wonderful feeling yesterday like things might work out. I am cringing as I write that because I don't want to jinx things, but I'm trying to think that being positive probably has a better effect on my mental health and therefore the health of this baby than is outweighed by being superstitious. So, I'm choosing to try to be let myself me optimistic when I feel up to it.
Anyway, just a little update. I've got a smile on my face and will try to keep it that way through the rest of this tough week.