Our trip is slowly coming together. I find myself daydreaming of the beach and know that we'll be there before we know it, plus there is Christmas between now and then. After Kauai, we'll head to Sydney and then to New Zealand where we'll stay for 6-8 weeks. And then onto Japan!
On the fertility front, I don't have anything to report. I've been feeling okay. I've had wonky cycles, but all signs point to ovulating and I'm having cycles, so that is something. But seriously - since my miscarriage, my cycles have been 27 days, 35 days, 18 days and 38 days. What gives?! I had decided to just leave without seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist, but then I found out that the one I liked best is joining a new practice that I also liked, so I figured there was no harm in just seeing what she has to say. I still want to know thoughts on trying HRT and then coming off of it (I've read this is how some have success) and if there is anything else I should be doing (although I doubt there is). Some days I feel resigned to just having one child, giving away all of our baby stuff (we ARE decluttering), and moving on from this stage of my life. It would be liberating to stop thinking about trying to get pregnant, which might be what happens naturally next year when we are traveling. I'm so excited to quit my job and spend more time with B and R.
If you want to read a heavy but incredibly moving, poignant, heartbreaking piece about the death of a child, you must read "Children Don't Always Live." Maybe I should have led with this sad link and followed with the flamingo? Oops.
If you want to read a heavy but incredibly moving, poignant, heartbreaking piece about the death of a child, you must read "Children Don't Always Live." Maybe I should have led with this sad link and followed with the flamingo? Oops.
Happy Fall to you all!
She really did crush Halloween. I am not sure if I am more amazed that she WORE the costume or that you found one so awesome. Because please tell me you didn't make that or I might send the police after you and arrest you for being SO AWESOME.
ReplyDeleteHa ha - she wore it to 3 different events and then refused to wear it on Halloween. She trick-or-treated in tights, a shirt, the feet and the hat. I ordered the hat and the body but then sewed the feather boas on the body and found the bird feet on Etsy. So mostly I cobbled it together :)
DeleteThat is an adorable costume! It must be incredibly exciting to have that trip to look forward too. It will be awesome but the planning and anticipating part sounds good too!
ReplyDeleteWonky cycles....yeah. Like you I feel like I have fertile signs as well (and actually consistently since starting the Clomid) but cycle length is still a big question mark. Hoping for better this cycle but unsure if I should hope for too much! I obsess over my BBT and what it means and then I sleep badly and it's messed up anyway....lol...
I'm wondering if maybe in my next cycle before we leave I should have ultrasounds to actually confirm ovulation? I'm going to ask at my appointment tomorrow. I haven't been tracking BBT but I'm sure I should. Frankly, I'm too lazy. Do you find it to be helpful (the fact that it messes with your sleep aside)? I figure that checking cervical mucus and using OPKs, I don't need to but maybe that isn't right.
DeleteI like the fact that BBT gives me further evidence of ovulation. The OPKs suggest ovulation is about to happen but not that it actually did. Some days taking BBT really does just stress me out and I skip it, but I do like seeing the high temperatures appear a day or two after ovulation because it looks like confirmation and I know I can stop taking OPKs at that point too. Since we are doing the Clomid cycles, I've made a commitment to be "all in." If nothing else, knowing that we tried everything reasonable might make it easier to say we're done with TTC, whenever that happens (hopefully we are done because we have another child, but I'm aware that we might have to call it at some point). But it is a balance between doing what you can and getting stressed....and I would never, ever try to guilt anyone into doing something they felt unpleasant. (I won't modify my diet radically, for example. That would be WAY too stressful for me.)
DeleteI just went back on HRT about a week ago. I had two natural cycles. One in August and another in October, so the August one ended up being only 49 days, which is short for me, and I was really hoping to hold off and wait for another one but then the sweating got too bad for me to handle. I wasn't having "hot flashes" per say but I was just getting REALLY sweaty, REALLY easily. Since going back on HRT I've felt a lot better.
ReplyDeleteI would love to hear more about the stuff you've read about going on HRT and then coming off of it. I have a doctors appointment next week to talk IVF with my own eggs. I ended up going back to my old doctor again. I am very curious about the effect HRT might have because I think being on HRT / aka estrogen priming before my first attempted IUI cycle last summer really helped get my estrogen up so high and I ended up having my first natural cycle in several months even though the blood test indicated that I did not ovulate :(
Oh and when are you in Kauai again? We are going over Christmas this year! I Can't wait!
First, hooray for a trip to Kauai at Christmas! We arrive on January 2nd. Will you still be there?
DeleteI'll write a post about what I've read about HRT after I go to the doctor tomorrow and pick her brain about it. Let me know what you find out, too. I'm definitely grasping at straws, but what else is there to do?
Oh my goodness! What an adorable flamingo. And your trip sounds so exciting, I can't wait to read about it!
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