We snuck in our 12-week ultrasound last Thursday before dashing to the airport for a trip east to see family and sneak in beach time over the 4th of July weekend. My husband hadn't been to an ultrasound since 6 weeks, so it was awesome for him to be there and to see the baby's growth. Everything looked good at the ultrasound and we are just awaiting the results of our MaterniT21 test (which we likely won't have until next week).
This was our first pregnant visit to the high-risk OB. We saw a different one than we saw in the hospital when I lost L and when we had our non-pregnant consult. I don't love her bedside manner as she was a bit brusque, but the visit was fine and she seems to know her stuff, including enough about clotting and our situation to make me feel comfortable. I've mentioned this before, but I feel as though I spend a lot of time wrangling doctors and making sure they all know what the other has told me... it is exhausting keeping all of their opinions straight and trying not to trample on their sometimes very fragile egos!
Our little baby was moving all around.... not as much as L did at her 12-week ultrasound, but still bouncing around in my uterus. I hate that I compare the two ultrasounds (and the two pregnancies in general), but I just can't help but go there. It is the same way that I compare my cravings (currently mashed potatoes, salt and vinegar potato chips, and any salad with mayo, which I usually never eat (e.g., egg salad, chicken salad, potato salad)), which are different in this pregnancy. I have this bizarre feeling I've shared before about this false sense of control if I do things a certain way.... if I don't crave the same things, this baby will live.... if this baby moves differently, he or she will definitely make it. Totally ridiculous, I know.
For now, we've made it to 12 weeks. My next ultrasound will be at 13 weeks, 4 days, which according to some sources means I will have made it to the second trimester. We shall see. One day at a time.
Beautiful baby!! I think those feelings are completely normal.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kandie! I think its pretty cute, too!
DeleteAw, what a perfect pic! I'm so happy all is continuing to go well. I completely understand finding yourself comparing pregnancies, but yes, keep telling yourself this pregnancy is different and it will go well. I keep having to remind myself of that too :) Sending you prayers for your MaterniT21 results!
ReplyDeleteYou are right... it is a different pregnancy and we just have to remind ourselves and hope for the best. I'm praying for you, too, and for an uneventful next 6 or so months for us both. Fingers crossed for good MaterniT21 results (and that they come soon... maybe before the weekend?).
DeleteSo glad things are going well! And I don't think you are ridiculous for comparing the pregnancies. I am too, but I just keep reminding myself this is NEW - different egg, different sperm, and I am different now too. I am not the same person I was last fall when I was in my early pregnancy. I also keep telling myself (when I think of all the what if's) that just because something is possible, doesn't mean it is probable. Just because I was the "one in xxxxxxx#" before doesn't mean I will be again.
ReplyDeleteAshleigh, I love your attitude. Just because it happened before, doesn't mean it will happen again and that is so important to remember to maintain sanity and keep anxiety in check!
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