We did get good news yesterday that is helping to quell my anxiety. I had a growth ultrasound and baby's head is measuring right on! She's overall measuring one day shy of her due date and everything looks great. Susie (u/s tech) and I spent some time just watching her move around, suck her thumb, etc. and it was just so reassuring (as are her kicks). I breathed a sigh of relief that her growth caught up and, in general, to be at this point without back or leg pain or signs of clotting.
I'm (obviously) still worried about things taking a turn for the worse without me knowing, but I left my appointment with the most wonderful feeling yesterday like things might work out. I am cringing as I write that because I don't want to jinx things, but I'm trying to think that being positive probably has a better effect on my mental health and therefore the health of this baby than is outweighed by being superstitious. So, I'm choosing to try to be let myself me optimistic when I feel up to it.
Anyway, just a little update. I've got a smile on my face and will try to keep it that way through the rest of this tough week.
So very happy you got good news at the ultrasound. You should definitely allow yourself to smile on the good days and be positive.
ReplyDeleteThanks - I try to remind myself that it is OKAY to be happy and that it doesn't necessarily mean I will jinx things. What will be will be!
DeleteThat's the best approach you can have - to just let yourself be optimistic when you feel up to it. Because there will always be fear and stress, so when those good moments happen and you can maybe, just maybe, picture a happy outcome, you've got to cling to them and hold on as long as you can. They are what will carry you through to the end. I sure hope it's a happy one too.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Caroline. You are right - we do have to picture a happy outcome at times. Otherwise, what is the point of going through all of this, right? I'm going to try to remember that going forward and stay as positive as possible!
DeleteSo glad to hear you are feeling positive! ride the wave! Every day and week is a victory.
ReplyDeleteYes, each week is a victory. It's a good thing to remember. Thanks for your comment.
DeleteI'm just playing catch up and seeing this now and so relieved everything is good with your little one! I hope last week wasn't to hard hon. Yay for being the most pregnant ever! I just passed that milestone too :) Continuing to think about you and sending prayers.
ReplyDeleteThanks! So happy for us both to have passed those milestones. I'm excited to move into the third trimester with you and hope for continued good news for both of us. Can't wait to hear about your shower.
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