The leaves are starting to turn here in Denver and I can sense fall is just around the corner. My thoughts immediately turn to Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. I have been thinking back to how much hope I was filled with last holiday season. Last Halloween, I passed out candy to trick-o-treaters and thought about what costume L would wear this year. We spent Thanksgiving on the East Coast with my husband's family and talked about how next year, we'd have a little girl joining the festivities. And Christmas... at Christmas, I had started to not feel well and already had my blood clot (and just didn't know), but I had purchased a stocking hook for L for 2014 and was planning for a joyous Christmas celebration with a baby. My Dad gifted us a wooden cradle he had made for L.
The changing seasons remind me how different life is than I thought it would be and I've been missing L like crazy. At the same time, I am so excited by the possibility of this little girl growing inside of me.
After a long walk tonight, I was thinking of how I wanted to be reminded of L this holiday season. I have a collection of Christmas ornaments that are special to me and I thought of how I want L to be represented on our tree this year. I ordered a customized ornament with her name, birthday, and her initial on it and I can't wait to hang it on the tree to be reminded of her every Christmas. It's just a little thing, but I know we'll have it for years to come, and hopefully next year we can add one for our second daughter.
I tried to leave a comment earlier but for some reason I don't think it went through. Anyway, just wanted to say I think this is a lovely idea to memorialize L. I hope you are able to look at it for years to come with peace and love for her.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I appreciate it. I hope so, too. My husband is traveling, so I didn't talk to him about it, but I think it will be a nice reminder at what will likely be a sad time of year for us since it is also when we lost her.
DeleteI just love these! What a beautiful way to remember L. I have a few ornaments for Holdon with his picture and birthstone that I put up every year, but may just have to get another like this for this year. So beautiful <3
ReplyDeleteI love the idea of an ornament and that you have a few. I was worried that after losing L at Christmas, the holiday would be forever ruined for me, but now I am hoping I can just remember her in the happiest way possible at that time.
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